I wish you knew

I wish you could know how you make me feel when you fight. I wish you hurt like I did when everyone is yelling. I wish you knew what it felt like to cry yourself to sleep, or to cry in the shower so no one can hear you scream. I wish you knew what it was like to want to hurt yourself to take the pain away. I wish you knew everything.

Torn in two

I want to be on her side, but she's not thinking straight. This is going to just cause more trouble for her.

Hate the seating arrangement

So I currently hate the seating arrangement in Mrs. Cummins class. She stuck John Martin in between me and my boyfriend. John Martin!!! I fucking hate John Martin!!! I hate that mother fucking asshole that can't keep his eyes off my chest!!! He makes me sick!!! I'm fine sitting near the rest of the guys. The rest of the guys don't stare at my chest while their trying to talk to me. I hate it. I want to stab his eyes out!

I'm going to be mobile blogging ALOT.

I wish I was married right now. Not for sex, but so that I can go to sleep everynight feeling safe. So I can be with someone who loves me, my other half. <3

Unloved

He cried. He knows the pain I feel of being unloved.

I told him tonight about how much I've contemplated suicide, how many times I've held a knife with bad intentions.